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 Bye Bye, Hair

Well, the time has come.  My hair just keeps falling out every time I touch it.  I'm leaving little trails of my hair all over the place.  Am I sad?  Of course.  However, this is temporary.  Losing my hair is minor when it comes to fighting for my life.  When a person is faced with losing something so precious as life itself, it changes your mindset.  My eyes have been opened.  I cherish every minute of every day, and I find myself really taking in whatever is happening all around me.  Life is so short and so precious, and it can change in a minute.  I never expected to find myself in this place in my life.  But here I am.  Fighting to live.  Fighting this scary thing called cancer.  They say you don't know how strong you are until strong is all you have.  That is so true.  I've been thrown into this situation, and I must be strong to push through it.  I intend to give it everything I've got and come out a survivor...A bald survivor! Haha....Because the clippers are coming out soon and what little hair I have left is getting shaved off!  I have several cute wigs to wear, and I look forward to having some fun with it.  I guess I'll let David do the honors of shaving my head.  I'm sure it will be emotional but it's all part of the journey.  I really feel like this will be such a life-changing journey and I will be so much stronger because of it.          



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